I really want to make sure I keep up with this blog, even when I am not in the mood to write. When I don’t want to get off the couch, when the thought of doing something productive makes me cry and when I am struggling to keep my eyes open. Today is one of those days.
It’s my 2nd day of Clomid and I am hoping that I either adjust to the hormones, or the next few days go quickly. Very quickly. I was thinking the other day, that this journey might not be a struggle for me. We haven’t really TRIED. Sure we went off the pill for a few months and decided to see what happens (which was a big fat nothing). I read about so many women who try for years and THEN go to the doctor. Today I feel like a huge drama queen. I imagine women who have tried for years to get pregnant will read this blog and roll their eyes thinking this is much ado about nothing.
On the other hand, this is my journey. I am worried, nervous, confused and exhausted. Someone will always have it worse than me and some one will always have it easier than me. I have a feeling, in 10 years, I will go back to read this blog, after it was long forgotten and think I was bat shit crazy. But that thought would be a quick one as I am chasing 3 little toddlers around.
I am on the couch today working, one of my biggest blessings is the ability to telecommute. I am going to feel how I feel and try to be okay with it and keep it all in perspective. Some days you need that, and today is one of those days.